Sunday, December 31, 2006

Last night of 2006

Such a long time haven’t been writing….
I guess this sentence would come most of the time in to my blog! Any way this is the last night of 2006, the last night that I am 20 something and going to get drunk for the new years eve ;-) in 4 days the counting of my age would turn to the new number 3 and some thing..

Still it is difficult to replace my diary with this blog I see if I can keep it up to date in my 30s. if I feel doing it, we see what would come …..
Just for now before I get to the Olie ballen eating, and drinking Champaign and getting stoned, after my whole night and day of Lord of the rings marathon, I say I am happy to celebrate 2007! it is going to be exciting year…. Maybe even more than this year? Who knows….

Thursday, November 30, 2006

meaning of life and needs

Days passing by so fast! I really do not get time to write any thing… today Hayriye told me “hey girl make your mind on what do you want to do, I am waiting for the moment you collapse!” Maybe…. I’m still restless…

Tonight before I sleep I started my usual quick check of my favorite weblogs, I got stuck in the “the enchanted soul” , I like it a lot...

Then I summarized my thoughts as a comment for “the enchanted soul” which I thought I should write it in my weblog just as a place to get back to it later….
Needs: I agree that there are needs which are different for different people. But how are our needs are defined? One can use the Maslow's hierarchy of needs to model and describe it. However I always thought that it is evolution which is defining our needs. Isn’t it all the matter of survival? We as well as animals want to survive. This survival mechanism is different in nature and evolves by time and in the interaction to the surrounding. In the earlier time, societies and as a consequence the human needed were (and in some places of the world still is) eating, reproduction, security, etc. then in a more complex situations or modern time, human realizes that needs are more than just basics to be able to survive. We learn that honesty, friendship, etc would help us in a long run to survive and opposite. Morals are formed and different social laws are established… and this goes on, sort of irritating circuit, leading to natural selection. As a matter of fact nobody knows if certain results are better than the others!
Some of us learn that hope and positive approach to life is one way of surviving. That is why we can look at the longer future, work hard to achieve our goal and do not bother with the short time immediate needs.
Of course I know that I am simplifying the question, but I just wanted to see what you guys are thinking…

Meaning of life: I always have been busy with this subject. It is always in mind that why am I alive? It actually happened that when I was kid, I saw an earthquake, and I saw too many of my friends and family members died in a second. The biggest question of my life since has been why did I survived? (Given the circumstances that is just a total bold chance!) but I am sort of given up on it. Some times we do not have a control over what it happens, like coming to this world, but what I have control over is”enjoying life” and “live the moment” since what ever looks solid, can become a smoke in couple of second.

Ach! I again am getting just 4 hours of sleep… I hope I get chance some times to update…

Saturday, November 11, 2006

married

today I am getting married!
11-11

Monday, November 06, 2006

scared

Why am I so scared if my friends love me and do something for me?
Why I always want to be the one who always gives and do not want to get any thing?

Friday, October 27, 2006

kerm az khoudete!

I should write in Persian, but any way now I do not have time to type!
1) I am still working it is almost 2am, but as my mom says worm is from my own ass!
2) I am very happy since the paper is accepted in Science, i write a bout it later!
i am really really HAPPY!

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

30 years, not yet!

at last I joind!